Posts Tagged ‘baby’

Six Months, Thirty Pounds

In Random Thoughts, The Program, Uncategorized on July 16, 2013 at 4:29 pm

Alright folks, I am super impatient to get the remaining weight off. I feel like I have to do something while I wait! Starvation diets and crazy amounts of exercise aren’t going to work for me, tempting as the quick results would be, I have to be reasonable and still function well! In fact, I have been doing a plan for months that has been working, just very slooooooowly… So, to calm the jitters and the rapid extreme weight loss fantasy schemes going on in my head (as a Mom to a toddler I just can’t go crazy;I need my energy), I think it is time to set some goals

My baby turns two the end of January, 2014. How about I set my goal to have the remaining pregnancy weight (and then some) off by her birthday? That gives me six months to lose thirty pounds. That works out to be five pounds per month. This, I think, is doable, even with the multiple months of holiday food craziness near her birthday. This means monthly weight check-ins, here on the blog.

Also, I have heard that people who give themselves non-food rewards at milestones are more successful. Sooooo… On August 15th, if I have lost 5lbs by then I am rewarding myself with a new piece of jewelry that I can look at daily and say, I did it! I am on my way! I am going to make it! We aren’t talking diamonds lol, but something I wouldn’t normally ever buy so that it is a real treat.

64lbs down, 30 to go….The journey continues!!


Another eating lesson from my 13month old

In Random Thoughts, Uncategorized on March 12, 2013 at 4:28 pm

My thirteen month old has this marvelous mechanism: she eats when she is hungry and she stops eating when she is full. Radical, I know! Her momma lost that fine-tuned ability (for the most part) years ago.

As I ponder how to regain understanding of what my body needs when and how much, one theme emerged: my daughter knows there will always be more food. Now of course I know (and am grateful) that we don’t worry about where the next meal is coming from. But when I eat food, especially food I really like, I eat as if I will never get a bite of it again! Even the most special treat, say a piece of birthday cake, is not a once-and-never-again event. There will be more birthdays, not to mention the leftover cake for the next day haha!

As I work through calorie counting and food experimentation to find the balance that works and feels best in my body, thinking about these mental/emotional behaviors around food is helpful too on this journey to finally lose the pregnancy weight. Baby steps brought to me by my healthy baby with healthy eating habits!!

I’ve lost 10.2 lbs since July 1st!

In Uncategorized on August 10, 2012 at 2:43 pm

Shocking!  Last night I was down in the dumps because I felt my weight loss strategizing for the last three months had completely failed.  I have not been updating this blog every night and I will have good days of sticking to the plan and then other days not so good.

I was speaking with a dear friend yesterday, wondering if in desperation I should go back to that extreme weight loss program I had done before (and lost 100lbs).  I’ve been so torn because, even though it wasn’t healthy for me, it worked and I kept off the weight until I got pregnant.  Last night, after a lot of painful reflection, I knew that I couldn’t go back there for my own health and because I couldn’t be a good mother to my baby while on their program, but that I did need to search for new solutions.  I resolved that the answers would come.

And now this!  A 10.2 pound weight loss which accomplishes two goals: putting me under 200lbs AND putting me below the 50% of lost pregnancy weight mark.  Now that feels good.

So what have I been doing the past five weeks to garner this very unexpected weight loss?  I haven’t been giving up.

Many days I have been eating very healthily.  But I have also been doing a lot of emotional eating which may last for one meal, or for a night or for a few days.  However, every time I stray I have gone back to healthy eating.  Those days haven’t turned into weeks of unhealthy eating.

At 6 in the morning my hubby was downstairs making his coffee.  When I stepped on the scale I almost fainted with relief (you have to put it in the context of yesterday I spent many hours feeling like a failure, feeling baffled and nearly hopeless.)  I yelled down for him to get up here right away.  Tip: do not yell at your partner to get up the stairs RIGHT NOW when you have a new baby.  He had a minor heart attack thinking something was wrong with her.  Instead, I made him get on the scale so I could make sure the scale wasn’t malfunctioning (he has always been a healthy weight).  The scale was functioning properly!

I have some new ideas on how to tweak my plan, but this unexpected weight loss may just ignite the momentum I need for the next 50(ish)lbs…

Reboot: June 3, 2012

In The Program on June 3, 2012 at 6:48 am

Well, ever since mothers day I feel like I have not been following my plan whatsoever and surprise, surprise, I am up about four pounds at 201 lbs at my monthly weigh-in.  Boo!  My experiment with mindful eating while away didn’t go horribly.  Some days I was great at having reasonable portion sizes, but other days I indulged (especially days I was mentally and emotionally drained: stress eating for sure).

For a week and a half I was visiting my mother who truly is an excellent cook (she is the kind who makes lavender cake from scratch and her idea of a basic salad involves stinky cheese and carmelized something or other).  She is a true gourmet foodie and I can’t get enough of her cooking.  Some days I had dessert for lunch and for dinner!

It is funny how quickly the weight shows up.  I can feel the difference in my thighs and see the difference in my face.  Ugh.

So now what?

It feels like for most of my conscious life I have been thinking “I’ll start tomorrow” on weight loss.  I would be on a plan for a few days and then fall off and say “I’ll start tomorrow” or “I’ll start Monday” or “I’ll start after ____”.  It started very young with me.  I so don’t want this to be the cycle I model for my daughter.  I hope by rebooting my Program and this blog that I will get back on track to finding a long term solution to my negative relationship with food.

I hate being back here again, feeling defeated by yet another beginning, yet another weigh-in over 200lbs…  But, that is where I am and I have to dust off my bruised ego, put my head down and reboot.  I still have lost over 40lbs since my daughter was born and if you spread that out into months (although it was all in the first two months) that is 10lbs a month…  That fact actually makes me feel a lot better and I know that the more confident I am, the easier it will be to think clearly and sanely about my food intake.

Wish me luck as I reboot!

Sunday Inspirations: May 6, 2012

In Sunday Inspirations on May 7, 2012 at 4:22 am

One of the worst things about being overweight was flying.  Even at 246 lbs (my highest weight) I still fit in the seat and the seatbelt fit, but I always felt HUGE and frankly, it was a tight fit!  The look of the person sitting next to me, trying to hide their disappointment that I was a larger row companion, was humiliating.  Now, I am an over-sensitive person by nature, but it was truly mortifying.  What should be an exciting time – traveling via flying, one of my favorite things to do in the whole world (I work for an airline) – was seriously marred.

I am headed on a trip in the next few weeks.  I know that at 197 lbs some people will be wishing they weren’t sitting next to me because of my weight, but I do know for sure they’ll be wishing they weren’t sitting next to me because I’ll be traveling with the baby hahaha!!!

In all seriousness though, those airplane seats are a good reminder, a good inspiration to keep on The Program.

What inspires you to live a healthy lifestyle?  What inspires you on your weight loss journey?

Sunday Inspirations: April 29, 2012

In Sunday Inspirations on April 30, 2012 at 3:01 am

I have averaged four hours of sleep for the past three night due to the baby and frankly, I am not feeling too inspired.  About the only thing that can inspire me right now is that (finally) sleeping little baby.  Looking down on her right now I know that she doesn’t have issues with food.  She asks for food when she is hungry.  She stops eating when she is full.  I lost that natural on and off switch long ago but I am inspired to work towards finding it again for her – I know kids learn most not by what you say but what you do.  I don’t want her to grow up watching her Momma constantly being defeated by a battle with her weight and self-esteem.

What inspires you to live a healthy lifestyle?  What inspires you on your weight loss journey?