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Friday Foodie: June 29, 2012: Ice Cream Treats

In Friday Foodie on June 29, 2012 at 5:53 am

If you have been reading my more recent entries you know that at night I have been eating ice cream or frozen yogurt.  All day long my eating will be super clean, healthy and reasonably portioned.  Then, at night, I feel stressed or sad or something else and I eat ice cream.  Tonight I ate a very reasonable amount… because my hubby had only left a little bit left in the carton. 🙂

So, what to do about my lack of will power over the evening treat?

Having a five month old has tested me to my limits (in an amazing way) and frankly, I am just not prepared to let go of that evening sweet indulgence after she goes to bed.  Since I know this about myself, I came up with a great solution: instead of going through the internal battle every night over the freaking ice cream and then feeling bad about myself for having it and then eating too much of it because I feel bad and I’ve already broken my food plan for the day… INSTEAD of all that fun… I am now going to have a measured amount every night and it will be part of my menu.

Tonight at the grocery store I bought these 150 calorie ice cream sandwiches and ice cream cones.  Since I don’t have to scoop out the ice cream I think this may just be the trick to keeping my portion sizes small and reasonable.  They are a bit on the pricey side but the peace of mind of not having to go onto the ice cream mental debate hamster wheel every night (will I or won’t I eat the ice cream, I can’t stop thinking about the ice cream, etc) will seriously give me a lot of mental relief!

Daily Menu: Wednesday June 27, 2012

In Daily Menu on June 29, 2012 at 5:37 am

Here’s tomorrow’s menu:

Breakfast:

Cheerios, Milk, Strawberries and bananas

Lunch:

Barley, Blackeye peas, ketchup, carrot sticks

Teatime: (optional)

Almonds & Dried Apricots

Dinner:

Spaghetti, Meatballs, Spinach, Salad (having dinner guest)

Evening TV Dessert:

150calorie ice cream treat

What are you eating tomorrow?  Are you setting yourself up tonight for success tomorrow?  When we’re overly hungry and unprepared, will power breaks down!

Thanks for reading this and I wish you much luck on your own healthy journey!

Daily Wrap-Up: Thursday June 28, 2012

In Daily Wrap-Up on June 29, 2012 at 5:34 am

Here’s how I think I did today on the traditional grading scale of A-F:

Sleep: B: Had heavenly nap with the baby in the morning.  If I had gone to bed earlier it would be an A+ day.

Water: A:  Drank at least 8 glasses.

Food: A:  Great eating day.  Had a SMALL bowl of low fat ice cream.

Exercise: D:   Walked the dogs.  Didn’t do a.m. stretches; Didn’t do p.m. sit-ups and push-ups tonight.

Vitamins: A:  Took them.

Journaling: C: Did not do in the a.m.  Did in the p.m.

Final Thought of the Day:  Hubby keeps saying he thinks I am losing weight (despite all my struggles to stay on track!)  Can’t wait for July 1st to find out what the scale says!!

How did you do today with your healthy living?  I hope you are kind to yourself, no matter what.  Life is too precious to spend it living in regret and self-loathing.

Thanks for reading this and I wish you much luck on your own healthy journey!

Daily Menu: Thursday June 28, 2012

In Daily Menu on June 28, 2012 at 5:12 am

Here’s tomorrow’s menu:

Breakfast:

Greek yogurt, raspberries, flax seeds and oil, oatmeal and cinnamon

Lunch:

Tuna sandwich, lettuce, carrots, fruit TBD

Teatime: (optional)

Almonds

Dinner:

Chicken, Broccoli, Barley, Salad

What are you eating tomorrow?  Are you setting yourself up tonight for success tomorrow?  When we’re overly hungry and unprepared, will power breaks down!

Thanks for reading this and I wish you much luck on your own healthy journey!

Daily Wrap-Up: Wednesday June 27, 2012

In Daily Wrap-Up on June 28, 2012 at 5:10 am

Why do I do this again?  Putting my struggle to lose the pregnancy weight out to the great WWW seems crazy, really.  But what is even crazier is that I don’t lie about my progress since it has been way slower than I imagined it would be.

Tonight I was feeling stressed after trying to figure out something with my husband.  We solved the problem and found a solution that is best for both of us, but just the stress of that process made me want to eat.  I had two small bowls of ice cream that equal one large bowl.  The rest of my eating today was just fine except for one serving of nacho chips (I counted the chips out).

I could blog that I did A+ on food today and ran 3 miles.  Wish I had!  So…. why don’t I lie to the WWW?  I just don’t have it in me.  What is the point anyways?  The scale doesn’t lie and we’ll be seeing what it has to say in just a few days on the first of the month.

But why keep on with this blog if I am not 100% perfect and determined to stick to the plan so I can shed all the weight?  I guess, although it is humiliating to say that yes again I had ice cream on a regular day (not a special occasion), there is value in sticking to this blog, reporting honestly what has happened and waiting for the next break-through.  Continuing to blog about my struggles is certainly better than giving up and returning to truly unhealthy eating habits.

It is a frustrating game and may be boring for you to read.  It certainly is humbling at how hard it has been for me.  The last time I lost 100lbs, well, it just seemed much easier.  I know that I didn’t have a newborn then, of course, and was getting tons of sleep.  Whatever the reason was that I had such iron-clad determination and will-power, I sure do wish I could get some of the momentum I had back then, right now!

Daily Menu: Wednesday June 27, 2012

In Daily Menu on June 27, 2012 at 4:02 am

Here’s tomorrow’s menu:

Breakfast:

Greek yogurt, blueberries and banana, flax seeds and oil, oatmeal and cinnamon

Lunch:

Rice, Refried Veggie NoFat Beans, Salsa

Teatime: (optional)

Almonds

Dinner:

Chicken, Broccoli, Barley, Salad

What are you eating tomorrow?  Are you setting yourself up tonight for success tomorrow?  When we’re overly hungry and unprepared, will power breaks down!

Thanks for reading this and I wish you much luck on your own healthy journey!

Daily Wrap-Up: Tuesday June 26, 2012

In Daily Wrap-Up on June 27, 2012 at 3:58 am

Here’s how I think I did today on the traditional grading scale of A-F:

Sleep: D: Waited too late to try to sleep when baby was sleeping and she woke up.  No nap 😦

Water: A:  Drank at least 8 glasses.

Food: A+:  Another great eating day.  BUT it was because I was saved by circumstance!  I wanted frozen yogurt and kept debating back and forth if I should have some (I had already eaten two squares of dark chocolate).  I gave in and went to the fridge and YAY: hubby had finished it!  I am now on my sixth piece of gum…

Exercise: C:   Walked the dogs.  Didn’t do a.m. stretches; Will do p.m. sit-ups and push-ups tonight.

Vitamins: A:  Will take them shortly

Journaling: C: Did not do in the a.m.  Will do in the p.m.

Final Thought of the Day:  When I lost 100 lbs before I remember thinking, wow, my body really doesn’t need as much food as I am inclined to put in it.  I have to keep remembering that because although I am constantly “mouth hungry” my body is getting enough calories and nutrition.  (I’ve done the math.)

How did you do today with your healthy living?  I hope you are kind to yourself, no matter what.  Life is too precious to spend it living in regret and self-loathing.

Thanks for reading this and I wish you much luck on your own healthy journey!

Tuesday Tenets: The Program: June 26, 2012

In Tuesday Tenets on June 26, 2012 at 5:16 am

Each week I am going to add a few new tenets to my program.  The newest ones will be in bold and the oldest ones will follow.  The Tenets are separated by 3 asterisks (***).  I am doing this to develop a system to lose the additional 50+ lbs I need to lose after having lost approx 40 lbs and to keep the weight off that I lose.  Goodbye pregnancy weight!!

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***Choose foods that have only 1-5 items in the ingredients.  

***Choose foods whose ingredients are recognizable.

***Eyeball portions sizes by doing the following: half the plate should be veggies and/or fruit; a quarter of the plate should be protein; a quarter of the plate should be a healthy carb

***Eat every 4-6 hours

***Eat organic whenever possible

***Get a Brita and begin filtering all water 

***Include in my daily wrap-up when I do my morning stretches and evening push-ups/sit-ups

***Include in my daily wrap-up whether I did journaling

***Every time I Think A Negative Thought About A Body Part I MUST Immediately Counter It With A Positive Thought

I want The Program to be one of physical AND mental health.  I know that I am a product of my culture and I know that culture has taught me that super thin is best and that if you are fat you are a lazy loser.  I can internalize this stuff like crazy even though I consider myself to be a pretty level-headed lady!  It is doing me no good, in my quest for health, to be thinking negative thoughts about my body parts.  This body spent nine months creating a HUMAN LIFE for goodness sake.  It has created a miracle and I am so grateful for my daughter  (especially since there were quite a few health scares throughout the pregnancy and delivery.)  My body deserves my gratitude and respect, not shame and hatred.  So… the newest tenet is that every time I think a negative thought about a part of me, I have to come up with a positive one immediately.  For instance if I think, “oh my stomach is so flabby and has ugly stomach rolls” then I need to immediately say to myself “Wow this stomach housed what I hold most dear in life for nine months and I don’t have many stretch marks – Thank you wonderful stomach.”  I think this Tenet may sound a little cheesy but actually be incredibly powerful and maybe even transforming.

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***Weighing Once a Month on the First:

I remember that the weight loss program I did before when I lost 100lbs had this rule (or at least I think that is the weight loss program I got that nugget from… there have been so many they all run together…)  My intention for weighing myself monthly is prevent the emotional roller coasters I would experience (and have been) if I weighed weekly and daily.  Hopefully this too will encourage me to rely more on how I feel and look to gauge the success of  The Program rather than on a number.   I will weigh myself on the first of every month.

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***Journaling Twice Daily:  I know this sounds extreme but it has really worked for me in the past when going through tough times.  Buy a small notebook (I don’t know the exact measurements of mine – maybe 3″x5″.)  Commit to writing one page in the morning and one in the evening.  It takes less than 2 minutes usually per sitting! The reason I am going back to the habit and intuitively know that it needs to be a Tenet of My Program is because I am an emotional eater.  I like to eat when happy, sad, confused, bored, frustrated, angry, excited, nervous, etc, etc.  I eat to comfort myself (I think that is why I gained so much weight during pregnancy – I was truly uncomfortable most of the time.)  So why journaling if I know this already?  When I eat over an emotion, whether it is positive or negative, it mutes the emotion making the emotion less intense.  I have long had the pattern of being scared of my extreme emotions because then I would have to make decisions and/or take action around those emotions and I have been really scared of change most of my life.  I like to cling to a more muted, luke-warm, steady existence where I am almost hiding behind the food and the fat to not get hurt….  Clearly this isn’t how life works and I end up missing both the highs and the lows.  I also can’t quite always determine how I feel because my emotions have been muted and all jumbled up for so long.  Journaling helps!  I find that I am more  confident and a better decision maker when I have been actively journaling.  Being more confident, making better decisions, knowing what is going on with myself internally all are key parts of healthy living and healthy weight loss!

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*** Vitamins:  It is best to get as much of the vitamins and minerals you need from the food that you eat.  However, your diet can’t 100% everyday provide 100% of everything the body needs.  A complete vitamin is perfect for filling in the gaps.  Because I am still nursing I am supposed to remain on the prenatal vitamins.  When I am done nursing I probably will go back on taking some additional vitamins like extra vitamin D and coq10 for wrinkles but for now the prenatal suffices.

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*** Water:  I’m sure you know the rule: 8 glasses a day.  Water keeps your body working properly, gives you energy and makes you feel satiated.  For a “treat” I’ll mix in a glass of bubbly water into the line-up.

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*** Hierarchy of Priorities that lead to Weight Loss and  a fabulous life:

1.  Baby Daughter – she is 100% dependent on me right now and she must always come first.  If that means I skip a snack or miss a mealtime because she needs me I need to remember that she is the highest priority and to NOT beat-up myself that I can’t be a 100% perfect dieter.

2.  Sleep – it is well-documented that lack of sleep leads to the body holding onto fat and weight gain.  As the mother of a newborn sleep isn’t always easy to get.

3. Food – This means the pre-planning of meals, the purchasing of the food and finally the cooking and preparation of the food.

4. Everything Else

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*** Planning and Recording the Day’s Food the Night Before:  This habit was part of the extreme program I did before and frankly, it really is genius.  If you know exactly what you are eating the next day it alleviates a lot of impulsive, I-am-so-hungry-I-will-eat-anything behavior.  And, it makes sure you know exactly what food you have in the house and whether or not you need to run to the store before you get overwhelmingly hungry.

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*** Focus on the Food but get 20 Minutes of Exercise in a Day: I have run a marathon while technically being morbidly obese.  I have trained on tennis courts for eight hours a day hoping to be thin.  I have done crazy extreme exercise programs that yes, made me lose some weight, but frankly were probably very unhealthy and taxing on an obese body.  My problem is emotionally over-eating, not with being uncommitted to exercise.  20 minutes of walking a day with a seven week old baby is ambitious enough!

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*** Never Get Too Hungry: If I am genuinely hungry, the kind of hunger where my stomach is turning and it is not the middle of the night, then I need to eat no matter what is on my food plan for the day.  I am a nursing Mom who is taking steps to live a healthy, thin, fit life – not to torture herself!

Thanks for reading this and I wish you much luck on your own healthy journey!

Daily Menu: Tuesday June 26, 2012

In Daily Menu on June 26, 2012 at 5:07 am

Here’s tomorrow’s menu:

Breakfast:

Greek yogurt, blueberries and banana, flax seeds and oil, oatmeal and cinnamon

Lunch:

Rice, Refried Veggie NoFat Beans, Salsa

Teatime: (optional)

Almonds

Dinner:

Not sure – going to the movies (they have a showing for couples with babies so you can bring your baby… how freaking cool is that) and it is an early show so have to think of a filling, healthy dinner I can make for hubby and I to eat in the car on the way…

What are you eating tomorrow?  Are you setting yourself up tonight for success tomorrow?  When we’re overly hungry and unprepared, will power breaks down!

Thanks for reading this and I wish you much luck on your own healthy journey!

Daily Wrap-Up: Monday June 25, 2012

In Daily Wrap-Up on June 26, 2012 at 5:01 am

Here’s how I think I did today on the traditional grading scale of A-F:

Sleep: A:  Going to bed at a decent hour

Water: A:  Drank at least 8 glasses.

Food: A-:  Great eating day – stuck to the menu, pushed through hungry when it was probably just me being tired and didn’t have nacho chips when I really wanted them.  Addition to the menu: 82% dark chocolate squares (great, healthy-ish dessert)

Exercise: A:  Nonstop housework all day.  Walked the dogs

Vitamins: A:  Took them

Final Thought of the Day:  The tweaks I’ve made with the plan (no longer weighing and measuring portions but eye-balling and being reasonable) have really been successful because I feel empowered, not limited.  I know my food choices are the correct ones and the portion sizes are reasonable.  The more empowered I am the easier to resist a binge!

How did you do today with your healthy living?  I hope you are kind to yourself, no matter what.  Life is too precious to spend it living in regret and self-loathing.

Thanks for reading this and I wish you much luck on your own healthy journey!